Today I am in mourning for a dear, dear friend… One Hour. Loss is something that we all must deal with in life. Each of us deals with this in our own way and this is how I dealt with my grief over this tragic loss.
As I drug myself out of bed, not knowing what time it was, I felt so confused, even in my own surroundings. One clock said it was 8:00 and another said 9:00… which one am I going to believe? My husband wasn’t any help. He couldn’t tell me what the time was either. We both fumbled around trying to find a reliable source and there was none.
There are 7 stages of grief and I went through all of them within the first few hours.
Shock & Denial
I can’t believe it happened. This horrible incident caused me to be late for work, thirty minutes late. No, it cannot be happening again. You cannot be gone like this. Someone is playing an awful trick on me. I just need to know the correct time.
Pain & Guilt
I can’t believe I am taking it so hard. Was it my fault you left me? Is there anything, and I mean anything, that I can do to get you back?
Anger & Bargaining
I am so mad that you left me. I have so many questions. Like, how am I supposed to get my beauty sleep without you? There has got to be something I can do.
Depression, Reflection, & Loneliness
You were so loved, what am I going to do without you? Everything was running behind because you left me. I still don’t know what time it is.
The Upward Turn
I am going to work this out. I know I will be okay. It’s around noon (I think?) and I’m starting to feel like I’m going to make it just fine. I must prepare myself for my future days without you. I must be brave. I am starting to feel a bit more calm.
Reconstruction & Working Through
There will be a time soon when I will be able to get through the day without missing you so much. I will get through this. If there is anything I learned from you it is that time is fleeting but time is to be celebrated.
Acceptance & Hope
Well, it’s time to end my workday (still not sure of the time) and I’m still missing you. At least I was able to say my good-byes before I went to bed last night.
So long old friend.
But just like a phoenix, you will be reborn again this fall and we can celebrate you again.
(I hope you all got a good laugh from this… How do you deal with that crazy time change thing?)